On Emails and Letting Go

One morning this week at work, I receieved an email about letting go. The message was good and realistic enough so I forwarded it to some people in the office, as well as other friends outside. A male friend of mine, one of the recipients of my first email, sent me another email also about letting go. It was a quite long and sad email . So sad that somewhere in the middle, I stopped reading and simply sent him a reply: "Kuya, di ko kinaya tapusin ito. Gumuguhit sa dibdib ko." His reply was a request to call him to tell me the background of that email. I did and we ended up laughing about it. 


This morning, I received yet another email from the same male friend. Entitled a When Candles No Longer Burn. Yeah, it was still about letting go. 


For some reason, blogs, emails, articles and even songs about letting go piques my interests. I know, it's a sad topic. A very sad one. Difficult even. I myself have a very hard time doing so, be it with a person, my pets or a possession. And to be honest, I am afraid of that eventuality in any circumstances. I mean, they say all things must come to an end, right? 


The fear comes from the knowledge that letting go is a painful process or situation to be in. When I am in one, it can take me a month at the very least, to snap out of the loneliness it brings. I once had to let go of a relationship and  I ended  up jobless for an entire year because I didn't feel like looking for one! One of my pet dogs got lost, and I cried for like two days and felt sad for like 2 weeks! 


The fear of letting go also comes from the fact that when I decide to let go, there's no turning back or changing my mind. No matter the pain or hurt it will cause to other people. I let go of a boyfriend in the past after he admitted that he cheated on me. I did this no matter how much I loved him then and the pain it caused me in letting him go; of the shattering effect that it will have on my ego as a woman. I let him go. 


On the brighter side, letting go affords me the ability to move on from a bad situation or experience, which in turn, enables me to learn and explore the world some more. It also helps me get rid of negative people or elements in my life, thus, reducing stressful moments. 


Letting go is a painful experience. But it will also teach a person a whole lot of lessons.