I am not a kid any more to allow myself to continue hurting for you.
I loved you and I still do.
But I have to stop loving you.
And it's going to start now, at this very moment.
For my own sake.
I asked for a sign.
And I got it tonight.
And made me realize
You're not really worth the trouble and the pain.
I just wished you picked someone better.
And it's not jealousy that made me write this here.
Call it a woman's instinct.
Knowing that you're with her,
Kind of made me ask, "yan lang ba?".
As a friend have jokingly said,
"Maybe he needs a woman who doesn't speak her own mind, ate.
Or maybe someone who doesn't have any mind at all."
If anything, the fact that just last week I prayed for you
And God answered it affirmatively, shall be enough for me.
It will have to be enough for me.
I know now that though I can't take care of you,
God shall do it in my behalf.
It took me a long time to love someone again.
I don't know how long it's gonna take me to do it this time.
I want to write here that I am gonna be happy for you;
But I'm not there yet.
I am hurting now.
And I can't be that magnanimous, yet.
I have to take care of my self for now.
To pick up the pieces and gather it
In the hope of making my self whole again.
I know that I will be okay.
Just that I have to take it one day at a time.
And part of my healing process is to steer clear of people
Who will remind me of you.
I just hope they'd understand.
Until when, I don't know.
I'm not a kid any more to believe in happy endings.
I'm not a kid any more to continue believing that loving someone makes you happy.
I'm not a kid any more to cry for you.
I'm not a kid any more to cling to you.
So, goodbye.
Aww...for the following reasons:
ReplyDelete1. I am mentioned! (I supposed ako yung a friend diba)
2. For the pain that a heartbreak brings
3. For the strength the comes after the recognition of the pain
@lai: yep, you're the friend i was referring to here. Thanks ate. Your comment while we were at the Powerplant, actually only made sense after I got my proof last night. Made me realize that if fate will play a bad joke and he will realize that he wants me after all, I cannot find it in my heart anymore to feel elated. I don't long for it anymore. The thought of him having been with her, a woman of that level, kinda make me go like "ay?" now. Sorry, but for one reason or another (and you know I'm not one to pass judgement easily), she just doesn't earn my respect;no matter what she achieves in her life. I don't know why, but since the beginning, I just don't like her. There's just something in her na off. :(
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