It's been nearly a month.
I am on my 2nd week of praying the Rosary at night time
And since the 1st night I've said it, I've been able to sleep better than the 1st two weeks
I've lost weight, something that isn't good for me given the fact that I am already way too thin for my age and height
I'm not crying as hard as I did the 1st two weeks it happened
I only do that now when the longing becomes too much for me
But the sadness remains and I know that it will stay for a long time
No matter how busy I get
No matter how "okay" I look on the outside.
I've stopped asking God to bring him back
But I haven't stopped thinking and worrying for him and the three angels
One thing that I do know is that I am not ready to go out there again and try again
My closest guy friend has tried already to make go out there
but I told him "No". He is still in my heart; he's still the one I'm longing for"
Until when, I don't know.
I just hope you're okay and happy.
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