Like what I wrote in my last entry here, recent days at my work place isn't that pretty and easy to bear. Two weeks of non-stop "issues", "hurts" and all other negativities that other people can think of were thrown back and forth. Through it all, I remained silent, choosing to just ignore all the negativities and move on with my life.
One person who instead of talking to me directly, opted to air her side to one of my friends, related that she's deeply hurt by everything and by what I supposedly wrote in that forum site. When I heard this, all I said to my Ate was, "I have moved on. I no longer wish to be dragged into whatever and wherever they want to drag me back."
GSIS (and my job on it) will remain as my main source of income, but it shall no longer be the primary definition of my being. I shall stop measuring my so-called success(es) with the promotions I got in the 10 years (and will get in the future) I've been working there. I shall stop telling myself that I am luckier than most of the employees because I am where I am now after "merely" 10 years in the service; that I am in a position where it took other people half of their working lives to get to, so I have to bend over backwards just to prove myself worthy of this position. Sorry, but gone are those days. What remains is the fact and the commitment that I shall give GSIS what it is due to be given, an employee with an honest desire to be a good HR practitioner and give the best HR service that I know of to my fellow employees. But now I KNOW that I need not obsessed with my job 24/7 just so that I can prove this.
Through all these stressful days, I am so grateful to a few people who have stood by me and believed in me; in what I am capable of doing and not. For their untiring hearts and ears; Ate Nini Conwi, for trying to bridge the "gap"; Ate Rosanne Tan for being my rah-rah girl in spite and despite of everything; Tita Emily Talamayan who during one drinking session was surprised that she was able to make me cry with a simple remark; Kuya Eric Madrigal who always make me feel that no matter what, life is simple and that Karma is always just around the corner; Lai Villagracia and Caren Evangelista, my ever dynamic duo, isang text lang nasa Hi-Street agad; Ninette Bautista for being there always; Louise Natividad and Bryan Hilary, my breakfast team. In all my 10 years in GSIS, never have I felt so supported. Thank you and no matter where I will be in the future, you will always have a place in my life! Pag nanalo ako sa lotto, may balato kayo! <wink!>
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